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Jan. 19th, 2026 02:22 pmDreamed random shit that I don’t remember well, but as has been the norm the past several nights, Jack has been in the dream just hanging out with me, us living together and making mundane decisions about things. Relatively boring.
Woke up tired, not as bad as yesterday, though. Took my supplements, walked the dog, pounded coffee. Feeling kinda alright by the afternoon, working, etc.
Speaking of Jack he called today to tell me he was having a cigarette break at the very first shift of work that he managed to get from Labor Ready. I’m proud of him, I guess, though he told me he’s already got in trouble by propping the warehouse door open. Wonder how long he will last. He isn’t good with rules. Jack’s endeavors usually amuse me, but having a few thousand miles between us is fine. A decade of trying to negotiate life with him was good enough, I think. Yeah, I still care about him and I want to be his friend, but it feels kinda like an ill-starred thing at this point. Ill-starred thing. That describes so many of my relationships and friendships. It’s pretty annoying. I kinda just need some average-starred things, or even some good-starred things.
I’d like some inspiration too, please. An artist/musician without that is pretty sad. I’ve managed not to go dormant completely, which is good. It feels like a battle, though.
Watched an interview with Peter Barakan on youtube. Japanology Plus is a show I really enjoy so it was interesting to get to know the host better. He’s actually really cool. He recommended an album, “Kaira” by Toumani Diabaté so I’m going to listen to that while working. Might write more later, we'll see!
Woke up tired, not as bad as yesterday, though. Took my supplements, walked the dog, pounded coffee. Feeling kinda alright by the afternoon, working, etc.
Speaking of Jack he called today to tell me he was having a cigarette break at the very first shift of work that he managed to get from Labor Ready. I’m proud of him, I guess, though he told me he’s already got in trouble by propping the warehouse door open. Wonder how long he will last. He isn’t good with rules. Jack’s endeavors usually amuse me, but having a few thousand miles between us is fine. A decade of trying to negotiate life with him was good enough, I think. Yeah, I still care about him and I want to be his friend, but it feels kinda like an ill-starred thing at this point. Ill-starred thing. That describes so many of my relationships and friendships. It’s pretty annoying. I kinda just need some average-starred things, or even some good-starred things.
I’d like some inspiration too, please. An artist/musician without that is pretty sad. I’ve managed not to go dormant completely, which is good. It feels like a battle, though.
Watched an interview with Peter Barakan on youtube. Japanology Plus is a show I really enjoy so it was interesting to get to know the host better. He’s actually really cool. He recommended an album, “Kaira” by Toumani Diabaté so I’m going to listen to that while working. Might write more later, we'll see!
